Roots of My Dreams

Roots of My Dreams

In the cool grey of the morning
I wake
Thoughts of you still on my mind
Dreams lingering
From a lonely night behind
Not able to take all the wonders and why's

In the cool grey of the morning
I hope.
Hoping that today,
I won't break down.
Ushering in signs of new life,
New times,
New adventures with you around.

In the midst of the day,
I stop,
Beginning to think of you,
My heart stumbles.
Struggling to find the words,
Searching for your heart.

In the midst of the day,
I wait,
To hear of a moment,
Filled with new things
Of new days and,
New memories of us together.

In the midst of the day,
I wish.
For these dreams
To come from your heart.
To see it in your eyes, so precious.
With words spoken by your lips.

In the silence of the night,
I see,
The end of a day where,
I'm still looking for the touch of your hand.
Like an angel from heaven,
With dreams of our love.

In the silence of the night,
I hear,
Angels' voices singing.
Speaking your name.
Over and over again,
Over and over again.

In the silence of the night,
I hear,
The echo of your words,
Lingering on my heart.
Causing me,
To hold fast hope tonight.

In the silence of the night,
I fall,
Slipping beneath the sound,
Of one heart beating.
Reminding me of what I'm fighting for.
Two hearts united, rooted in dreams.

A Moment of Imperfect Clarity

A Moment of Imperfect Clarity

It's so hard, in these hours alone,
Not to let the silence take you from home
To distract yourself from all the imperfections
That are cast on the water as a reflection
Of what looks only to be a fractured life
Full of decisions that caused nothing but strife
Now, I try to remember that God promises a fulness unknown
But really, that's the hardest because,
It seems like when you finally see it, it's gone...
like lightning
Falling from the sky
You fall with it,
Letting out quite an unremarkable cry
And when you do finally hit the ground
Your ears go deaf from the sound
But not from the noise all around
From the scream within your soul that resounds
And your eyes, in kind,
Start going blind
From the tears that are wept unseen
Losing hope from the lies that make up
So many broken dreams
Tell me, what's the secret?
I promise, I can keep it...
Please. Don't make me fake it,
I know love can break it
Break the cycle of a shattered existence
Longing only to create some distance
Between a past that plagues me
And a place away from this insanity
A moment in time that does not conform me
To a world that wishes only to devour me
Away from a sanctuary with correct theology
But instead, I seek Your heart, Your serenity
Because,
Jah, in the end,
With You I find acceptance
A return to innocence
Lord God, You are my refuge, my solace,
The very reason for my existence...

The Alchemy Index

The Alchemy Index

Tell me are you free
Or has this deluge overtaken me?
This absolute depravity.
Is your heart marked with fear?
Is it marked with trembling?
Here I am God
Lift my soul
Let love saturate
Touch my heart
Touch my soul
I want to walk beneath the fear
That is pushing me, pushing in
Your love that never ends
Because You're alive, and
I am not alone!
You've called out my days,
I am known.
No longer will the dead stay that way
No longer will my soul scream
Just for a glimpse of the unseen
Your love is moving us from in between
So I cry out
This is my alchemy index
Changing my heart
From stone to flesh

The Sufferer & The Witness

The Sufferer & The Witness

Would you know my name if,
I never came out on the winners' side again?
Recently this season of defeat & ideas of loss
Pierce my thoughts about what has been
What will be, what will never be again.

In a night so reckless, thoughts come witless
Crashing down around my feet
Along with the will to overcome defeat
So now the curtain falls but I still sing
Echoes of the Spirit act as a harbinger of what He may bring

I know now who You are, despite all the scars
You are the endurance of the Saints
The beating of our hearts, giving us a name
You are the Sufferer, the Witness, our Catalyst
My God, the Lord is with us